You can go months with being on top of your game and on track to reaching all of your goals. You can be killing it for weeks and months in a row and then one thing happens and suddenly you’re on some sort of out of control spiral. You can be crushing it, and then … More Hitting Reset.
Struggling with an eating disorder is one thing. Battling it is another.. and Recovery is an entirely different aspect of it. Every part of my struggle taught me something.. every step throughout my battle changed me .. but nothing has changed me more than the day I chose to recover. Nothing has changed me or … More What Recovering Taught Me
When it comes to break ups there is always a part of you that tries to hold onto any piece of what was in order to cope. Over the past few months i’ve realized that breaking up with your eating disorder is very similar to breaking up with a significant other. When you break up … More Breaking up With your Eating Disorder
You can hate the person that you used to be. You can dwell on the choices that you didn’t make. You can destroy yourself for the decisions that you made in the past. Or you can accept them for everything that they were and you can accept the person that you used to be, because it’s … More Who You Were Made You Who You Are
Every week with my coach I do a check-in , which includes weight & pictures. For someone that has struggled with weight and being haunted by the number on the scale, I sometimes avoid this aspect of it. Understanding that the number on the scale is simply a number is vital when it comes to … More The Scale is Just a Number.
No matter what you do there are going to be people that try and bring you down. There are going to be people that look at you and pinpoint the one thing that you’ve done wrong. No matter how hard you try there are going to be people that find the negatives. The negative energy … More You Are Your Own Worst Critic
So many people in the fitness world are so hooked on tracking everything. Their lives revolve around tracking macros and never missing a day at the gym. Every waking moment is spent thinking about their next workout or their next meal. It’s almost like they’re always one step ahead and fail to embrace the world … More It’s not all about Macros.
Over the past couple of weeks I have struggled immensely with my body image following my vacation to Vegas. Before leaving I felt amazing. I was more confident with myself than I had ever been before. I was following a meal plan that I loved and seeing a lot of progress. While in Vegas I … More Coming off Vacation
Over the past year I’ve been seriously thinking about competing. Thinking about the amount you have to push yourself to new limits both mentally and physically is extremely appealing to me. Maybe it’s the idea of something new to compete in, or maybe it’s that so many people ask me if i’m currently prepping. With so many people around me prepping … More Contemplating Competing
Five years. Five years ago I was laying a bathroom floor alone at 3am, and crying so hard it was silent. I was alone on a bathroom floor trying to hang onto whatever little bit of life I had left in me. I remember the first person that I told. I remember the phone call … More Five Cheers for Five Years